So I got ISS for today and tomorrow. Why? Because I lifted a chair from under Jessica. And Why did I do it, because Jessica said a comment a that I disapproved of and It made me mad. Now when I did this I thought Jessica could be a bit more subtle with her aggression, but Nooo. She had to get all Black and upitty. So Mrs. Collings called the office and Mr. Ebert came and took us to the office. And thoughtout the entire time of this Jessica was crying her little eyes out trying to make me look bad and appear as the bad guy. When we were told to repeat our stories I told the truth and Jessica on the other hand left out the part where she insulted me.

But after all of this I'm like whatever. I hope people could see and know how cruel she really is.

Today really was good, nothing really brought me down.  The only strange that I noticed was that when I was walking to Aaron's car it felt like everyone knew me, and everyone was saying "Hey Brandon" or "Bye Brandon" or "Hope you have a good weekend" or "Catch cha later dude" (I made up the last one, No one said that but it would of been cool if someone did), but It made me feel really good like... I was loved.

I have realized after a while that I think I'm starting to be attracted to too many of my female friends.

I wonder if I should ask Ellen out or not. I would hat e to ruin a friendship by thinking she like me more than I friend

Its really weird. I've recently have been going though a sorta of Male Heat kind of thing, I've been getting easily aroused by the slightest thought of being with a girl. Of course this has been because I have thoughts of what sex will be like when it happens. I wonder what my friends "first time" was like. I wonder many other things such as: Who will it be with?, Will I enjoy it?, Will she enjoy it?, What if something goes wrong?. Its all too confusing for me.

I wish I wasn't afraid to talk to girls, Life would be a lot better if I could "wow" girls into liking me.

I'm a tad bit excited to to go to the Universal Unitarian Convention with Aaron. He says you get to meet a ton of different people and they talk about stuff like Social Justice which is cool. I'll need a sleeping bag as we go there Friday night and stay til Sunday afternoon, I think. Oh yeah these Convention have a theme each year this year is maskurade party. I need a mask as well. I have to be sure I seem cool to others.    

I'm failing geometry and it's starting to feel as if I can't bring my grade up from my 65.7.

I wish I knew someone who was actually good at it.
It also makes me feel inferior when I see sophmores with algebra 2 books, Cause I know they are probably smarter than me.

So basically me, Aaron, Mike, Derek, and Matt Dean woke up at like 5 some to get ready to leave. The drive was ridicouls it was like 3-4 hours or something, but it felt like forever. We ate breakfast at Mcdonalds, and I got a Chicken Biscuit and 2 hashbrows. It took forever to be served as they "ran out of biscuits" which is pretty crazy as they are suppose to be prepared. We had lunch with Zack at this Greek place called the Parthledon something like that( the waitress  was looking pretty good btw). And then when we were walking we met Pat, Kenny, and Jack which was pretty cool, Pat was cursing a storm, I guess college does that to ya, makes grow up in a way. We also saw Reggie  which was cool too , he had kool-Aid stained fingers lol.  The  building were really nice, I know I would love the place, depending on the building I would live in. But basically that is the place I want to go.


I really like it, it looked really cool. The air was very refreshing and new.  I hope to go there.

I need a Kitten. So I can give it to Lysandra.

A dress might be a lot more easier to find.

I have had my life and well-being  threaten twice by a girl's Bf


The First time was by Kandon: For touching Oliva inapproriately in theatre arts. It was when we were just joking around when were suppose to be practicing for a scene.

The second time happened today on my Voice comment thing on my myspace page, the message was from Josh: Well he just hates me from the bottom of his heart, because he thinks I'm trying to steal his girl.(Jessica if your reading this. You came onto me, I just cooperated.)


I mean I can't help it if the ladies be trying get with me.
JKJK
What girl would want me?
Thats actually a really good question.
Please Date Me.

But anyway I don't see how I can be found Intimidating, I mean look at me do I look like I got the skills to rob a man of his girl and dignity.
I mean seriously, Do I?

I took an IQ test and got 96 then i took another to verify and I got a 97. I don't know if that makes me a average or stupid, but i know its not high.

I took a Gender Identity quiz and the results said I was 63% Feminine and 37 Masculine, I hope this doesn't mean anything bad.

I also took a quiz to find out who is my celebrity match like as in dating and my match as Kristen Durnst from Spider-Man.
 

Was this week I mean first I got my go- kart started again and I've had that thing since I was like 11 or 12 years old.

I got to see a girl's boobs and then later touch them.

I just got back from my weekend with Drew and Matt.
I tell you the weekend in chronological order.
In the Suv it was me,Drew, Sam(matt's sister), tony, and a friend of tony's named robert/Bob.
First when on the way to Ziggy's in Winston Salem I tried my  first Monster Energy Drink, when we got then it cost 10 for entry( which is I'm told a reasonable price) And they asked if I was 18 or older and I said "No", So they put black Xs on my hands, and in my mind I was like "Awesome Straight edge!" When we got inside  the first band was already playing  I don't remember their name, but they were ok for a starting band I didn't have a problem as I was still opening my mind to Metal. When they were done the next group came up they were called Error On Display, I thought they were good, because before they played their song they did "Sabotage" by The Beastie Boys, but Drew thought their singer was weak(But he was pretty cool cause he moshed with some of the people after the performance, and he had a hot wife).Then Caffine Superstar came up and everyone was loving it they were moshing, throwing beach balls, Splashing beer around, it was just hecktic. I joined the mosh myself and knocked two people on the ground, so I'm proud of myself for being in a mosh and standing up against guys twice my size.The last band was too loud for me so they don't matter, but during the performance Drew wanted to start  another mosh so he just went up to a random guy and pushed into him(its the universal sign of a begging mosh), but then after he pushed into him the guy just started to push drew away  like he was going to fight him or something, so drew just backed off him, and then after that we all left.

On the way we stopped by mickey ds(its like 2 some in the moring btw)and we order a ton of  food and ate on the curb and talked about how we liked it, and how we hated the jerk who pushed Drew.They also screwed  almost all of our orders btw. I hate  Mcdonalds a little more now.

When we got to Drew's home I was given to the option to get  high, play games, or go to bed. I chose to play guitar hero(Your proud of me now aren't you), so  tony, bob, and sam got high. Then later we watched School for Schoundls, which Drew believed reminded him of me ALOT. And that taught me that i should be more risky and try harder to talk to girls, and  not care what  people think. I doubt a new me is gonna happen, but i'll try.And the movie ened at like 5:40 and it was alright turning day so I planned to just take a nap and so when I woke up it was like 12.

After a couple hours of playing Guitar hero and Halo 2 Tony got a call from ken asking if he wanted to see a movie and he was like sure so since he was my ride home i would go with him. So on the way to Ken's house Tony and Bob tell me that Ken's father is racist , so I hop in the back  of the suv and threw some towels over me so no one could see me and I waited for like 15 minutes under those towels just sweating like an old slave escaping. When they get back they tell lucky his dad was not home.

We went to see Evan Almighty and guess who I saw there... Jessica and Josh. So I said Hi and left and when we got in our seats guess who was seeing the same movie... thats right you guessed it Jessica and Josh.

The movie was good, I can't complain really.
  

I don't understand why I don't have a Girlfriend.
Jessica, Elise, Sarah,etc. have told me that I'm a good guy and that many girls would be happy to have me, but yet I have yet to find a girl that I like that likes me back.

I've asked Kristina out, but she said no which made me sad in ways, because I like cause she's pretty without makeup and even when she doesn't do her hair I still think it looks nice. She shouldn't care to much about she looks cause she has that natural beauty thing going on. And not to forget her personality which is Excellent. Nothing else needed to say.

I should most likely end my crush on Veronica, because It would never happen. She likes older, confident, good-looking guys, and that is just something I'm not. 

I have a hard time getting it straight in my head what girls do I like, my mind is ever-changing with thoughts of love. In the years I've liked Elise, Corina, Veronica, Tracy, Kristina, Lysandra, just countless many. I just don't know what I want in a girl or a relationship.

I've also  realized from the previous paragraph that I only gain crushs on the girls that are my friends. How strange?

This last part is my penis talking.
I'm hopeless.
I mean I'm going to the 11th grade and I have yet to kiss a girl, touch a girls breast, get a bj, or have sex.
There are kids in 6th, 7th, and 8th that have done more than me.
I'm an Epic Failure.

I got fired from Pomodoro Wednesday for being too shy and not talking to other people.

And now I have to get another job so I get pay to get my  glasses fixed and I have to pay for some books I ordered